Welcome Back Meagan...

So long ghetto mobile...you will be missed!

I know it has been a while since I have been on the blog, but I am BACK! Life has been really hectic lately and it has taken everything in my power not to freak out! Tim got back and we are still having trouble finding him a job and then yesterday my car died...like completely. No bringing it back to life...no nothing! That made matters a little more difficult but I know God is working through this. It is insane to think how life seemed so wonderful just before Christmas and since then it has been one thing after another. I feel like I am super stressed. To top it all off it is finals week...oh my lanta! Well, enough complaning...it is good to have this blog where I can just go and get out all of my worries and frustrations. Why is it so hard in times like these to trust the Lord? Why does life seem to get in the way of obediance and discipline? I am tired of letting it. How can I be trusting the Lord if all I am doing is worrying about how he is going to do what he says he is going to do? The same God that saved me at the age of 19, and changed me from a rebellious, lost and mean girl, to someone who no longer desires the way of the world, why can it be so hard to trust even when his deeds and love are staring me in the face? I know he is amazing and I have seen what he has done and what he has allowed. He has changed me and even though I am flawed and broken, he still sustains my everything, and he still is guiding me to what he wants. I guess the waiting is the hardest. I am not super worried, I just get moments where it is like...really!? Are you serious? Who am I to even question what he is doing though? He is a God who knows all and he is a God who is far greater than I will or can ever be. I am trusting the Lord, and I am praying that his timing will be soon. I am also praying for patience in this time, to continue to trust him, day by day. I know he will not fail me. I have continued working out. I started back cycling this week...it feels wonderful to be back! :) I love it. I need to keep focused on my goals. I lost 7 more pounds... I can do better. I can lose more. :)